The Sacral Chakra is a very personal and sacred energy centre within the body. It can be found about 5cm below your belly button. It’s represented by the colour orange, which personally is a favourite of mine. As it falls around the womb and reproductive center of both women and men, it makes sense that this energy centre is related to relationships, family, birthing of creativity, pleasure, fun, joy, sensuality and nurturing. It all sounds so yummy! No wonder the mouth is a reflection of the Sarcral Chakra, it is instant feedback around the taste we have for life.
During the last couple of weeks my Sacral Chakra has been bubbling and I have felt something wanting to rise to the surface, but I’ve been struggling to understand what it is exactly… until today. I took a walk along the river which turned into a run. I began running, as all of a sudden the pieces started falling into place and I understood and acknowledged what I had been carrying with me for so many years, almost as long ago as I can remember.
The faster I ran, the quicker past events in my life were put together like a jigsaw puzzle. Past events, decisions, partners, health issues and addictions began to make sense. I had finally understood why I had attracted them into my life. Tears started to well as I felt a mixture of sadness and relief.
This loneliness isn’t on the surface. I have plenty of friends and family around to call on if I feel like some company. No, it’s a deeper loneliness that sits far from the surface that no one can see, other than me – because I am the one that has to see it. It is so deep that at times I’ve even forgotten it was there, more often than not carrying on as if it didn’t exist and complaining of an upset stomach.
I’ve realised the action so many of us take to fill the void, to make us feel like we are not lonely. We start to become addicted to things to fill us up in an attempt to make us feel good. It could be anything from shopping, shoes, studying, exercising, sex, infidelity, drinking, smoking, gambling, drugs, chocolate or cheese! What ever the vice it doesn’t really matter because at the end of the day the root cause will probably be the same – loneliness and the yearning to be nurtured.
This makes even more sense as I think about people who seem to have everything, be it the perfect job, the perfect partner, the perfect family, the perfect life but they still have addictions that sometimes go so far as to sabotage the wonderful things they have. My feeling is it’s because the outside world can’t complete you, only you can from the inside out.
So now I know I need to start nurturing myself and treating myself how I would like others to treat me – there’s a new concept! It’s almost like I have to become friends with myself again so I will never be alone. In fact it’s not almost like, that is exactly what I have to do. Some positive affirmations to start with would be:
Healing happens each time I rest, relax and enjoy myself.
I am grateful for the joy of being me.
I love who I am exactly as I am.
I love my life.
(The Complete Guide to Chakras by Ambika Wauters)
I hold such gratitude and am humbled by the teachers and peers around me who have led me to understand myself with such strength and compassion. I have shared this story with you to demonstrate that each Chakra centre has a shadow. To explore it and understand it, I know the light will be even brighter on the other side.
If this blog has stirred something within you, please don’t keep it to yourself. Talk to a professional about it, as it’s important that you don’t feel alone while experiencing shadow emotions that you may have been holding on to.
May the light shine and guide you.